Neglect..

ne·glect
[ni-glekt]

- verb (used with object) 1. to disregard or fail to do
- noun 2. disregard; negligence

This is something I've been guilty of, and I feel bad for it.

I'm not just talking about my blog, but also me.

I've neglected myself.

I'm in shitestate, and I'm trying to get on.

It's proving difficult, my riding, my motivation, the whole 9 yards.

Riding

Cold
Snow.
Mud.
Great oldschool hikeabike.
Tough climbs.
Fantastic decents.
Warm hashbrowns.
Hot tea.
Great company.

#Perfectdayout..

#Bugger

Road ride ? Yup.
Corners? Yup.
Gravel on corner? Yup.
Big hole in new tights? Yup.
Bigger hole in kneecap? Yup.
Awesome? Nope.

#Bugger

Running, well, plodding...

I ran last night.

Not far, and certainly not fast.

But I ran, and I actually enjoyed it.

Not as much as I did when I was fit.

But hey.

I'll get there.

I know I will.

It takes a while for a habit to form apparently Wiki but I'm willing to give it a go.

I got lots of positive comments from people who I know, and some from people I don't really know, but, having said that the one comment stuck in my mind the most:

" Thats a great time for normal sized people like us....."

I didn't really know how to take that?

I am really that abnormaly sized??

Shit, if people that have only met me once think that, then, hell, I really, really need to sort my shit out.

Inappropriate bikes

We rode.

Infact, we smashed it.

Cannock, on a cold, bright beautiful Saturday morning.

We rode.

And I enjoyed it.

All of it.

Yes, the hills still hurt, yes, the lack of brakes, and suspension made for an inappropriate ride, but hell, we rode.

And it was great.

Great to have wonderful, fantastic people around me, who all ride for the same great reasons- because we can.

Yes, every single one of them could ride the legs off me, and yet, they didn't.

We rode.

We had cake.

We laughed

We drank coffee.

And most of all, I really, really enjoyed it all.

I guess this is why we ride?

That, and to see the look on the locals' faces as a CX went past on their favourite trails...

It's ready.

It's ready.


I just really hope I am..


It's gonna be an adventure, of that, I'm sure.


We shall see.


Saturday will come around soon enough, and then, well, the fun starts..


And my me.


I'm looking forward to it

Tomorrow, we ride

Sadly, of late, this has been my answer to the eternal question- "you riding tonight?"

Its spank, It really is, I dunno why, I really don't, but as of yet my head isn't in it.

This isn't a good place to be.

I've signed up to do #HONC in April, and I am really, really struggling to get out there and ride.

I'm also going away in April for a weekeneds Road Riding in Northumberland.. and again, I'm gonna get handed my arse on a plate.

Why, can't I do it?

I don't know, I really don't, beacuse I do know that when I'm out there, with nothing but me, and my Ipod in my ears, I love it I really do, its just, well, the getting out there.

Its easier to not ride than it is too ride sadly, theres a;ways a reason not too, and its become all to easy to answer the orgional question with Tomorrow, we ride.

This. Must. Change.

And, I know it will.

I'm just not sure when.